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| photo by Gisbert Rentmeister
I was briskly walking in the rain the two miles to the
Boston Public Library. I had to do
some research and to look for a certain book. Arriving, I climbed a flight of cement stairs, when suddenly
I tripped and fell. The pain was
so severe I thought I was loosing consciousness—going in and out-- my heart was
wildly racing, and I hardly could breathe.
I had to decide whether to go down or to go up the stairs, and to find a
seat to sit down. I went up, but
barely made it to the only seat I saw in front of a computer.
I reminded myself that this experience was a problem
of a sensation of mind and not of matter. And not just to say it, but to
recognize that here was an opportunity to deal with it within my own thoughts,
and so to reap its immediate benefit.
In Science
and Health it says, “Meet every
adverse circumstance as its master” (p. 419). But how could I go about it under the severe influence of
pain? It must have appeared to an
onlooker as if I was starring at an empty screen in front of me—but in reality
I was looking through it. I
penetrated those mental sensations of feeling guilty about not being more
careful, of feeling stupid, and even stunned and hopeless. “Thine own mouth condemmeth thee, and
not I: yea, thine own lips testify against thee” (Job 15:6). “Wow!” This was a timely reminder! I
immediately saw the need not to be foolish enough to practice
self-deprecation. To belittle
oneself can never be a path to healing.
God, the “I,” or I am, has no part in it, and does not encourage it in
me.
So, I let this spiritual understanding work in me.
That is -- I prayed! Whenever a
negative thought popped up to distract me, I effectively silenced it with
Truth. That is, I did not agree
with its opposite, or error! I was
very engaged in this restful activity!
Eventually, fear and pain disappeared, and I was able
to breathe easier again, and my heartbeat appeared back to normal. I got up, and slowly walked all the way
back home, with a “THANK YOU” in my heart!!!!
“O shooting star—
that fell into my eyes and through my body---
Not to forget you.
To endure.”
-Rilke---
Infinite good is the only Friend upon whom we can call
at all times,
an all-powerful ever-present help in every time of trouble;
!!!!!!
(Science and Health by Mary Baker Eddy)
Stand still, and consider the wondrous works of God.
If the only prayer you ever say in your entire life is “Thank
you,” it will be enough. –
What we plant in the soil of contemplation, we shall reap in the
harvest of action. Meister Eckhart (1260-1327).
All God wants of man is a peaceful heart.
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Warmly, Eva-Maria |
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